Vaccine Reactions.

Needing a place to write this, so obviously, my blog would be it. I haven't really let this out...its been in my head for a while now and I haven't talked to anyone but Bryan about it. No one else seems to understand.

Noah has had minor vaccine reactions and my doctor has always said it was normal. I'm not sure if it is or not. When he was very little, we started vaccinating normally but he was very fussy and Bryan and I felt he was "twitchy" and jerky afterwards... (which I know now probably was small seizures). So I started an alternative vaccination schedule to spread them out as much as possible.

After each dtap shot, he has screamed for hours on end that evening. After his vaccines around 9 mo, he stopped babbling. But then a couple of weeks later, he seemed to be back to normal, so I chalked it up to just coincidence. Bryan was worried but I kept thinking...no it can't have anything to do with that. Vaccines can't be that dangerous...

This most recent Dtap on March 3rd, he screamed for 3+ hours and was limp in my arms. Like, he wouldn't move. His fingers were blue. I called out of work (it was my first night) because I was so scared that we would have to take him to the hospital. The doctor said that he was probably just fussy and to wait. He just nursed non-stop...wouldn't move at all from me. After those hours, he all of a sudden seemed to get better and perk up. I gave him tylenol and he eventually settled to bed. Things seemed normal.

I can't help but be very scared by this. I've read about parents who ignored the "small" reactions and then continued vaccinations and their child had a very severe reaction.

He has the MMR, polio, Dtap, chickenpox, hep a and hep b's left...maybe a couple more. My vaccination schedule isn't in front of me.
I'm definitely not doing the MMR until past 3+ years and then it will be the separate components. 
I'm not sure about the others. He only has one polio left and the new reccomendation is that they don't recieve the last one till age 4 so we;re okay there. Hep A and Hep B don't really concern me right now because he's not having sex or using needles... hah. Chickenpox...I'd like for him to have natural immunity but with most kids being vaxed by now, that might not happen.


This whole issue has been weighing on my heart and mind so heavily lately. I'm listening to my momma instinct and delaying the rest of his vaccines until at least 2.5 yrs.

I really HATE this issue and HATE being forced to choose between potentially actively harming my child and passively possibily allowing them to become sick with a disease.

A friend of mine just mentioned that her boss's son was diagnosed with ADEM (Acute disseminated encephalomyelitis (ADEM) is a neurological disorder characterized by inflammation of the brain and spinal cord caused by damage to the myelin sheath.  ADEM may occur in association with a viral or bacterial infection, as a complication of inoculation or vaccination, or without a preceding cause) right after his 18 month vaccinations.
My prayers go out to them....